I am scrapping from zero

*Stealing some time while working*

I need to let this out. Because i couldn't possibly cry here. It would mean giving up.

But i feel like a complete idiot. I never knew that it is possible to not be able to make sense of something. I always find a way to figure out what i don't understand. Not in this case. Not when i have expectations to meet, and somehow i just have no idea how to get there. That, and not understanding what the heck is going on.

I've never been too fond of uncertainties. I would rather not do or even say something, until i am completely sure of where i stand in a situation. You can call me a coward, but i just don't see the point of it.

It's a common saying, "If you don't know anything, just freakin' shut up" (ok so not exactly a saying, but you get my point). What happens now is that, i have to go against it. How does that work? You can't possibly  teach the birds how to fly. That's what they do. And you don't exactly fly any better than the birds. You don't even freakin' fly. It doesn't help that you don't even have wings to try. It's just ridiculous.

What the heck am i trying to prove?!

Of a beginning and an ending

Forgive my laziness in updating this blog. I've just been having better things to do. 

Ok ok. No. 

*Tolong la jangan merajuk. Buruk rupa.*

I have been busy transitioning. 

*No. Not into a ninja turtle or anything out-of-the-world. Sheesh what gives you that idea?*

It's been quite an interesting period of my life, these past few weeks.I am actually turning into a working young lady. Oh god that sounded so makciks. Hahaha. But regardless, it was what has been occupying me the last couple of weeks. I have finally started my job. My first ever real job.

It's a new world for me. Some said i just threw away 4 years of technical study. But i don't really see it that way. It's more like turning a new leaf. I don't believe in confining myself to any specific genre. This is a total 180 degree turn for me. It's like entering a whole new universe altogether. 
I wonder what have i gotten myself into? =)

The unexpected actually keeps me on the edge of my seat. It's what makes me jump out of bed in the morning to go to work. So far, it did not fail to surprise me. Although in a rather puzzling kind of way. But i'm optimistic. They said i have a lot to learn. Hell yes, i do! But as long as they are willing to share their knowledge with me, i am more than willing to absorb it all in. 

This job requires me to work out station most of the time. It involves visiting clients office, conducting interviews and testing, follow-ups and such. This would mean less time spent at home with my family, and limited time to catch up with my girlfriends. Thank god for Twitter. Nowadays, i am such a Twitter junkie, it has become an important mode of communication with the girls. And weekends. Oh god weekends. I feel like sleeping all the way till noon (but i can't really do that, my folks would start bising by 10am duh). Well, i get their point. It's the only 2 days i have to go out and see the world. If i keep up with sleeping till noon (or god knows i could have slept till evening), i'd be a lonely old maid with no friends at 30. So i still drag myself up, shower and everything, say hello to the morning light, and start my day at 8am. I just love my weekends.

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On another note, my convocation ceremony is just around the corner. Prior to that, there's the robe collection day and rehearsal to attend. Since i'll be attached to an engagement in Batu Pahat for 3 weeks, there's a big chance i would miss the robe collection day *sigh*. And i might miss my friends graduation as well *sigh*. But i'm determined to attend the rehearsal at least. Wouldn't want to trip myself or exit through the wrong aisle on convocation day *yikes*

It's on the 7th of August, people. Feel free to drop by and say hello =D Pretty excited that i'm finally graduating!